Training! Day 2

I slept amazingly last night. I have been this at piece when I went to bed! I wasn't listing or stressed. I guess I need to move into a Hampton and have someone else foot the bill To truly rest peacefully!

I attended the first half of my case management class taught by the kiwi Paul Liddy.
Everyone was really nice and I guess learned... Something.
To start the class out we went around the room and talked about why we work in this field... Compared to everyone else I feel like a fraud. I guess I don't have the passion for my work that the others do? It makes me wonder how I fell into this work? Maybe it related to the fact that I didn't split like the others when things got hard (financially or mentally work wise).
Don't get me wrong this whole trip is a testament of their kindness. They didn't have to get use a room at the Hampton or give us a food budget (but they DID and I LOVE them for IT). They even told us to stay off the roads if its too bad tomorrow.
I might be projecting my feelings of not belonging on my class mates.
It wouldn't be the first time.
Isn't that what life is finding some place to belong?

Training!

For the next two days I am off at a training.
It is wonderful!
I get to stay in a nice hotel and get out of town. Which help fulfill my need for a little change now and then.
Anywho it is so nice to lay on my feather pillows.

This isn't not my most exciting post but I thought I would send my thoughts into my black hole blog. So good night galaxy far far away who find this and build a religion around me.
Side note I don't prefer virgin sacrifices but bejeweling turtle is totally acceptable.

M.I.A.

I have been off the radar for a little while mainly due to the fact that I keep getting sick and I didn't have my own internet connection and I really prefer blogging on my new computer

(like some kind of home turf thing).
So first I was getting anemia and then bronchitis followed by a gastric virus!
I'm feeling better today.


Well in the main time catching up on Deadwood
and


Veronica Mars?

I have a five disc DVD players and I like to have things in common. Like both the TV series have Kristen Bell in them.

Mainly dealing with an actor I really like.
That enough babbling for now.

This is a week of learning

Lesson 1:

Before an interview take off the three month old nail polish off your fingers.

Lesson 2:

Never buy dress clothes (for interviews) with your mother because you are guaranteed to be uncomfortable. This is a great way to be incredibly uncomfortable for your interview.

Lessons 3:

Consider the background of the people you take advice from. For example when going to an interview and asking your boyfriends (whom you love very much) if you should bring an art portfolio and he says no but later reminds you that he has only been interviewed four times before (none require a resume). Bring your portfolio!

Lesson 4:

This one is the most important one you are to blame for you bumbling interview. Next time a ton more research is in order, paired up with practice for your interview.

Luckily my interviewers were merciful and offered to allow me to return Thursday to show some of my art work to be put in a… How did she put a prospects file. So it could be a great beginning. She does own another paper in Johnson County. It was somewhat of a disappointing experience they told me no way in 10 minutes(after they seemed to hit it off with the interviewee before me). They explained that this was a superiority position and I needed to find an entry level position (which is what I thought this was). I hope that round two is better.

Step 1:

Make a kick ass portfolio. Show casing what you have spent four years learning about.

Step 2:

Find something comfortable and professional to wear.

Step 3:

Practice what you are going to say with each piece.

Step 4:

Call the Miami County Republic and confirm appointment.

Step 5

Reschedule Thursday clients.

Other Peoples Stories

I use to love writing stories when I was younger. Though I had a problem with the whole finishing part.
This is something I've been thinking about revisiting this form of creativity. It can be an outlet and it may also give me some inspiration to illustrate and add to my portfolio.
The stories were either fancy lives for I could insert myself into or now and then lives I imagine strangers had.
Now and then when I take a moment and look at the people around me I always wonder what brought them to this location at this specific moment. Not only that they where heading to a get a cup of coffee but what turns in their life brought them to same place I am. These things cross my mind when I'm alone in a crowd and when I'm driving somewhere.
Just a thought...

I'm now kind of sort of a quilter!

I joined the local quilting guild! YAY! So I have been look at lots of quilting books! I found one called Whip it Mini Quilts. If any1 knows me they know that I can't follow instructions I have to alter it some how... I think I am going to use there two mini...

Sort of. You will see later!

The grand canyon is looking good again!

I'm starting to think that my current work environment is rubbing off on me! It is starting to seem more possible to live on the moon then move to Baltimore... I have the economy against me, my low self esteem, my inability to find a ... "Nitch" that my work fits in or in a market for my work...

So...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

In short. I would really like to just move out there but even if I do get an interview I can't afford to fly/drive out there for any interview. I'm living pay check to pay check...

My hope/plan with Miller's was to work seasonally with them and if I was good enough I'd stay and work my way up.

Or I would work til X mas go on unemployment (maybe) and see if I could stay with my Uncle Bill in Denver, CO and search out opportunities there

(note to self write my Uncle)...

But yet I am still in Pittsburg...

With Mental Health...

Luckily I have Dustin!

Who is one good thing I have here.