Week 5 A.K.A. X Mas

 I did a lot of running around for X Mas this week.  

I still got in a fair amount of work to! Plus!

The job search has lagged but I have been trying to tie up any lose ends I have for gotten before I leave..

I had a nice X Mas though

From Dustin:  

From Dad:

A donation towards my Kindle and Gift Cards (including my latest addiction Papa Murphy's)!

From Mom:

My awesome cover

and the Kindle Fire! 

YAY!

I was great to see my family and I had  a great weekend.

Dustin and I have a tradition to go to 2 movies on X Mas day

This year was:

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo which was AMAZING!

I can't wait for the next 2 I need to get to reading!

Tin Tin which visially AMAZING but I felt the story was slow 

but 

I feel I will grow to love it after the next 2.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Do you ever feel like everyone else is planning your life.
One thing I hate is trying to be fixed!
I may be cracked but not broken!

I have gone through rough times before but I will figure it out!
The goodbyes have been hard but I know all of my clients will be fine.
 I will be forgotten before long...
I know that this wasn't the best laid plan but I had enough.
I'm an adult...
In theory and can made this choice on my own.
I am not sure what to do but will try different things to find what fits me.
My job has been poisoning me for years.

Changes

I gave my two weeks notice...  Friday.  

 It was a long time coming. 

 I need to move on but two of my co workers aren't ready.  

The main reason my exit was hasten (meaning without a other position prepared)
was because they wanted me to work with someone I couldn't go back to. 

 Two co worker has offered to work with said person for me so I can stay.

I need to move on and it was hard enough  giving my notice today. 

I thought the hard part would be to tell my clients I'm leaving, I didn't bet on the staff.

I took a week of  internal searching to leave today.

The hardest part of leaving is the fact that it will cause a need for other decisions...

That I will mull over later!
I have been planing for what to do so not  fall even further into my whirl wind depression.
Honestly it is a very good thing that I was raised Catholic so exiting this world at own hand is not on the table due to the threat of eternal damnation
and
I'm to pretty to die!

Week 4

This one is very tentive because this week got away from me

 so

 Wednesday  and Thursday I filled in the best I could!

Things I've heard Part 2

I'm sure I have forgotten some but these are some of the recent audio book.

The Beach House By Jane Green

I really enjoyed this one.

Jane did a great job of making the beach house itself a character

Dune Road By Jane Green

I really enjoyed how she had many different types of women of different life's coming together.

Swapping Lives By Jane Green

A great grass is greener on the other side story.

Blue Christmas by Mary Kay Andrews

I enjoyed this one but I think I need to read the rest in series to truly appreciate it.

Deep Dish by Mary Kay Andrews

Romance and food... What more could I want in a book?

Sleeping Arrangement's by Madeleine Wickham

This one was alright but some of the characters choice were less then desirable!

The No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency by Alexander McCall Smith

I started with The Blue Shoes of Happiness and fallen in love with Mma Makutsi, Mma Ramotswe and Mr. JLB Matekoni.

The Double Comfort Safari Club by Alexander McCall Smith

Another winner.

It Had to Be You By Susan Elizabeth Phillips

I really enjoyed the story of the dog.

Funny and witty!

Dogs and Goddess by Jennifer Cruise

Feeds my girly needs.

Manhunting by Jennifer Cruise

Week 3

So this is week 3 if you are wondering what happens with all my time.

This isn't exact but it's close enough.

I was sick this week so I didn't work as much as I usually do.

Freedom?

So I was told by my boss that I have to start seeing a client that I swore I would NEVER work with again.

The original plan was if they pushed I would just quit.

I now feel this option was eliminated when my boyfriend got fired from his job (of 10 years).

I can't go into any detail about my client due to HIPAA.

I can say I AM DONE with said client!

The problem though is that if I quit I won't get any unemployment.

I don't want to anything that could result in being fired.

I have been there for 4 years in January & would feel bad and I have a clean back round thus far.

Do I give up on my personal belief & cave for the money & this hellish haven I have made.

To be honest the only thing keeping me in Pittsburg is Dustin & he has said before that the reason he stays is he was worried that he would get paid as mu ch if he left his job...

But that's out of equation.

I believe that he doesn't want to leave because this is were he ran off to make his start so he doesn't feel a need to do it again.

In short our clashing of life experience have finally clashed since he is 7 hours ahead of me.

Pittsburg is good for college and families.

I don't want children.

Pittsburg was fun when I was in college but I have graduated & it's time for life!

If I leave work I will be replaced.

If I Leave:

-Sadly I am not a snow flack my other clients won't remember me, hell some forget who I am weekly anyway.

-I won't be trapped in a profession I didn't intend to be my career

-Dustin might not come with me

-I could start anywhere

If I stay:

-I have a job

-I'm helping others

-NOTHING WILL EVER CHANCE

- I will compromise myself by doing something I said I wouldn't

Week 2

Well my social life has been bombing yay but as always the money will run out and I will go back to my lonely self! Until then party on!

Here is the 2nd week of tracking my time!

This is a tentative outline of my time.

I'm still not sure where my life is going but I have put in a massive amount of applications so here is hoping!

Maybe the winds of change will blow my way!