Fabric Flower Mania!

I recently took a quilting class from the fine women of B and T Studio.

We learned how to make some lovely fabric flower and have kept making more!

The ones from the class are not included but hopefully it will be featured here soon.

In the mean time here are some flowers I have made from scraps.

I also added one to a koozy I made to fit the cream soda bottles.

Once I locate or buy another cream soda bottle I will give you a demonstration of it in use!

I really enjoyed this class and the company there wasn't so bad either!

I've made a lot of these flowers on my down time at work

(I have to set in a ton of waiting rooms).

Now What!

So due to an unfortunate incident my hard drive crashed... Yay! Lucky I have a friend that is handy with computers and he manged to get 60 some GB. Sadly one of the files I wanted the most would be my art files. They are gone! I have a little hope though I have a backed up file from Feb. 2010. So I may get some of them back...

This has been a cherry on sunday...
Life after college has seemed pointless and meaningless....
The loss of these files is heartbreaking.
I was actually on somewhat of a creative streak and this has greatly hindered it.
I guess I will rebuild in a week or so the new hard drive is in the mail.
Until then...

Scar Meme

I found this on deviant art and thought it would be fun.

I attached a blank one if anyone else would like take part as well.

Writer to Boot

I have mentioned before that I enjoy writing (except for the finishing part) and have had characters rattling around my head for years (in a non schizophrenic way).

Dustin (the bf to end all bf's) thought something I said would make a a great book title and I'm tempted to take him up on it. The phrase was
Taquitos With Natasha.

Natasha for those of who don't know is my beloved dog!

And Taquitos are:
a frozen food that Dustin and I often enjoy!

So watch out on the best sellers list for

Taquitos With Natasha!

Jerks Can Be Cause For Change

Last night Dustin and I went out for our anniversary so went to a resturant we love (when we have some extra cash) Mythos.

Where the waiter was a total DICK! Dustin thinks I'm being silly," of course he wasn't as polite to us because if he butters us up we won't get the $80 bottle of wine." I feel we should have still gotten respect. I think he was ageist! He was chatty with the other tables and boxed up their food while THORWING our boxes on ours and frankly it made me feel like shit!

Yesterday I decided I'm hitting the ground hard from now on.
I'm not really happy where I am right now and only I can change that. Baltimore maybe further then the freaking moon currently but it can wait. Mom and I are going on a road trip there in the spring and I can see first hand if it is really the dream place for me. For now I need to find smaller changes.
I go through phase with job hunting hitting the ground running and then nothing.
I'm back to hitting it hard! I'm so tired of everyone here saying
I will never leave.
Clients, SKIL Workers Co workers they all keep saying it!
It's giving me nightmares!

The main anchor keeping me here is Dustin.
I do really love him. Before him (I hate to admit this) the guys I saw were either disposable or I knew would leave me soon enough. How do I know they would leave me because people are incredibly predictable! Then one drunken Halloween I met Dustin who wasn't trying to wait our relationship out for sex but really was smitten with me. So totally destroyed my plan of dump whoever I was with when I graduated and get the
HELL OUT OF PITT.

If I do move Dustin and I always say we will cross that bridge when we get there. If he does move with me I feel like I'm ripping him from the habitat he has built for himself. His circle of friend mostly. That's why when I ask if could move anywhere he really doesn't have an answer because he has made Pitt his.

I am not able to make this town mine. It was meant to be a temporary stop and I am looking for an out the issue right now is looking for a realistic out. I have been only applying for jobs that I feel would go well with my degree.
The problem with this is the fact that they want 2-6 years experience or are out of town and see that Pittsburg address and say no way.

I mean I could easily move back with Mom and get a job in Lawrence either back at the movie theater or the Noodle Factory (through a friend). I really don't think I could deal with living with my mothers boyfriend and I fear getting into the same rut that I'm into here. Getting comfortable with my current job and being afraid to leave. Yes that is the truth that I rarely speak a loud that I'm terrified to leave mental health. I don't really know why it scares me so much.
Maybe the unknown of it all but I use to live for the unknown.
What happened to me?

Maybe I need to figure out who I am post college?

Here I am

Here we are me and Natasha..
Stuck in Pitt...
Hope is quickly dwindling.
At work I was sent to a training and the main point of it was hope for recovery.
How can I be any help to clients when my hope is gone?
Dustin read an article a while ago I may have mentioned it before that talks about how my generation was promised greatness and easy riding by going to college but freakly that isn't the case at all.
Hence the massive number of post college blues. I feel paralyzed, stuck in one place not moving forward but at least I'm not falling backwards either which would be living out of my car
... Again.

Love Hate

How can a a game pull me in and then slam me down and leave me begging for more.

I just finished Assassins Creed Brotherhood. I haven't 100% it yet but that I'm sure that will occur soon enough. For those who don't know "gamer me" I have to 100% games to feel whole! LOL!
I find the controls superior because of the controls y controls head, hands are x and b and a controls feet.

The premise is great as well. I have always loved the thought of the world having a seedy secret underbelly.
It is one of the reasons that I love Indianan Jones and want to join Daughters of Job (it's the closest to a a assassin or Templar I will ever get?)
The ending was amazing I want to play just to experience it again.