Work work work...

I find my self frustrated with work lately. Between diffcutly communicating between co-workers ane other stuff hippa forbids me to blog about.

I find it interesting having a job with muiltiple

Things I've heard.

I do really enjoy listening to audio books while I work on art, between clients my sorry excuse for quilting. I haven't blog a lot lately so I have a lot of books to talk about.

My Horizontal Life: A Collection of One-Night Stands by Chelsea Handler

Are You There, Vodka? It's Me, Chelsea by Chelsea Handler

Best Friends Forever: A Novel by Jennifer Weiner

A Change In Altitude: A Novel by Anita Shreve

Can You Keep a Secret? by Sophie Kinsella

Confessions of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella

The Fixer Upper by Mary Kay Andrews

God Save the Sweet Potato Queens by Jill Conner Browne

The Sweet Potato Queens' Book of Love by Jill Conner Browne

The Grand Finale by Janet Evanovich

Back to the Bedroom by Janet Evanovich

Plum Lucky by Janet Evanovich

One For the Money by Janet Evanovich

The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society by Mary Ann Shaffer, Annie Barrows

The Help by Kathryn Stockett

Naked by David Wroblewski

These High Green Hills By Jan Karon

Realizations

We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us.

-Joseph Campbell

Dustin has been trying to tell me something to this power for going on a year now.

Ever since I graduated and got the post graduation blues.

It's funny how it takes seeing a show spouts out this Joseph Campbell quote and I realize what everyone in my life has been telling me for a year now could be true?

...

I need to be happy and just live.

I mean look at the life I planned:

Single and living in Baltimore MD working for some kind of designing firm.

The Life I Live:

Living with Dustin and Natasha (happily).

Working for C.C.M.H.

I may have fallen into this job

but

a lot of people can't say they found something they are good at?

The import thing is that I'm am the foremost an artist.

The most import thing to do is to keep creating wether it is

Tentacle women or

Gnomes!

I just need to get myself out there.

All of these thoughts are true but I why don't I feel any better?

I still feel like a failure for not leaving Pittsburg...

Small Still Lives

To most I am the nick nack queen! What others don't understand is that most of the items I own are more sentimental. They either are from someone I care for or remind me people or place I care about. I like to create little still lives around my home.

On my DVD player.

1. A Frog I made

2. A Flower Frog

3. A Tiny Moses Statue (Michelanglo)

4. Toy Gator
(I enjoy how when you place it beside Moses his dignified look seems more terrified.
I mean if you were thrown in the Nile you would have a croc complex.)

1. A plastic statue of the Virgin Mary (a woman I adore).

2. A porm crosage (my dear friend Josh Rommelfanger gave me)

3. A hula girl (from a kitch project)

4. My fathers senior picture

5.A chess piece (I think a bishop)

from a Youth Group lesson at Baldwin 1st United Methodist

6. A feather I found shortly after my dear Cal died

(His wife told me if I found any feathers it was just Cal watching over me and knowing him he has fine wings of grey feathers).

7. Two tiny owls that I got... Sometime.

I know it was a trip but it currently escapes me where I was.

8. I don't know where I found this little deer but

I just adore it and the tiny sunflower I got a craft store

(it just fit perfectly with the deer)

9. I got this tiny church in Peru.

10. A little girl I played with in Peru

(during a mission trip)

gave me this as a good bye gift.

1. A windmill I got for an art project to depict wind power.

2. A bottle of Inca Cola from Peru.

3. A Kaleidoscope my art buddy Ashley "Palomino" Powell gave me for my birthday.

4. A candle holder my Mother gave me.

5. A ceramic I painted at Sunfire Ceramics for scouts I think?

I got this in Jenks, Ok on Dustin's (my boyfriend)

and

I's first vacation together.

Escape Plans

I finally made it to Baltimore Md to confirm it is where I belong...

It didn't really feel right.

So it is time for a new dream and that is easier said then done. I have no idea what to do now because I have no idea what I want to do with my life!

I've thought about France... The problem is I once thought the world to be exciting and...

Well magical.

Since graduating I have learned that the world is full of bills and disappointing.

I want to feel same way I once did.

For example that the Mona Lisa holds a secret that can only be unlocked by gazing at it.

Now I laugh at the thought, what did I expect her bend down and whisper her secret.

I need to adapt to adulthood starting with ...

Does anyone know?

Fabric Flower Mania!

I recently took a quilting class from the fine women of B and T Studio.

We learned how to make some lovely fabric flower and have kept making more!

The ones from the class are not included but hopefully it will be featured here soon.

In the mean time here are some flowers I have made from scraps.

I also added one to a koozy I made to fit the cream soda bottles.

Once I locate or buy another cream soda bottle I will give you a demonstration of it in use!

I really enjoyed this class and the company there wasn't so bad either!

I've made a lot of these flowers on my down time at work

(I have to set in a ton of waiting rooms).

Now What!

So due to an unfortunate incident my hard drive crashed... Yay! Lucky I have a friend that is handy with computers and he manged to get 60 some GB. Sadly one of the files I wanted the most would be my art files. They are gone! I have a little hope though I have a backed up file from Feb. 2010. So I may get some of them back...

This has been a cherry on sunday...
Life after college has seemed pointless and meaningless....
The loss of these files is heartbreaking.
I was actually on somewhat of a creative streak and this has greatly hindered it.
I guess I will rebuild in a week or so the new hard drive is in the mail.
Until then...